Help im so confused?

me & my bf were 2ge4 4 ages he told me just yday he loves me but 2day its all changed he broke up wid me bt didnt gimme a reason he just sed that he cant do this ne more im so ashamed of myself iv just been thru councelin n he realy helped me as i used 2 self harm & now ive just cut my legs 2 bits i cant stop shakin i no i shunt av dun it bt i luv im so much & i dnt wana b wiv8 him I no this is wrong to bt i checkd his emails & he has 1 from 3 days ago that he saved sayin iv broke up wid lilz coz marie sed she want 2 get bk with me (his ex hu has a bf atm) i dnt understand i lost my virginity 2 him the night he sent that email & he was so sweet he made it so special he had candles ev3were etc bt now hes broken up with me im so confused i dnt understand he was with me all day 2day he slept at myn last nyt then spent the day with me we went to the cinema n ev3 ting bt then wen e left e txt sayin e cant do it ne more i no this iz wel long n al chav ritin bt plz reply i need advice!!